existential crisis cont.
the concept of failing at life scares the fuck out of me but i also don't want to get into a career that i don't want or care about just bc it'll make me money it always feels like if i don't do something now its gonna fuck the entire rest of my life up even tho ik thats not true but its bc im in 2 programs that are trying to get me out of there asap but its stressing the fuck out of me i don't wanna forget to take a class or fail and feel like im fucking up my future
my friends are leaving to college and idfk how to deal w it. its scary bc it seems like they have a set plan for what they're gonna do w their lives and im going to city college bc even tho i think ik what i wanna do im having second thoughts but that may just be coming from me not wanting to do anything and idk if that's laziness or depression and idek if i have depression and on top of all that i don't have any new friends in college yet and idk how to talk to new people.
18, bi, he/him